Tuesday, 18 January 2011

Thine be the glory

Thine be the glory, risen, conquering Son;
endless is the victory, thou o'er death hast won;
angels in bright raiment rolled the stone away,
kept the folded grave clothes where thy body lay.
Thine be the glory, risen conquering Son,
Endless is the vict'ry, thou o'er death hast won.

Lo! Jesus meets us, risen from the tomb;
Lovingly he greets us, scatters fear and gloom;
let the Church with gladness, hymns of triumph sing;
for her Lord now liveth, death hath lost its sting. Refrain

No more we doubt thee, glorious Prince of life;
life is naught without thee; aid us in our strife;
make us more than conquerors, through thy deathless love:
bring us safe through Jordan to thy home above

Have you ever noticed the line "No more we doubt thee"? I haven't.
It came to me in the shower. Weird that it's included, I mean so very often the idea of doubt isn't included in church songs and the fact it's included in such a well known song resonated with me.

Also, I just read my last post and realised it doesn't make any sense. It did at the time, doesn't any more. I had decided I was going to try a bit a clearer with my writing instead of constant self referencing and crypticness. Seems I have some way to go eh?

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

Part of me persists

Part of me still wants to try and make you sing, but it would be hypocritical.
I've always quoted to people "if 5 million people say a stupid thing it's still a stupid thing", but there are times when it falls short.

Monday, 3 January 2011

We have things in common

David Crowder Band, Sufjan Stevens, Cool Hand Luke, Phil Wickham, O.C Supertones and a hundred other artists, all of them have covered Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing. I find it interesting that a relatively unknown person of Norfolk Church history could write a song that seems to strike a chord with so many even today. I've posted about him in the past, it's rather sad story.

I've never come across a church song that is so honest in it's doubt. I think I've said it before but never mentioned it here before, doubt isn't talked about enough. It's seems it's ok have questions just as long as you're "pressing in" each Sunday, but the moment you question and doubt and stop the Sunday feel good junk, you're some how tarnished with an incredibly unhelpful/unhealthy opinion that says "You better get right with God", like it's some stupid threat.

That's another thing I've realised since I've been away. I can't help but get the feeling church gives out this unspoken message that there's grace for the sinner, but there isn't grace for the doubting Christian. Go figure.

Sunday, 19 December 2010

Hello again

I just stumbled across this blog after reading all about McFly and I can say with complete confidence:"I'm not who I was."

I'm more at peace with myself. Do you know; I used to talk constantly to myself? Pointing out every flaw and imperfection. It was sometimes a torrent of abuse, but now I almost feel "Bugger it, you're not perfect. It's ok, move on."
I don't view myself with such disdain any more.
I'm not the horrible person I was led /I led myself to believe.
I've certainly got a foul mouth now. I'm ok with that. I'm just saying what I think rather than bottling it up and then despairing at myself.
The future looks uncertain and I'm ok with that.

Monday, 15 March 2010

I think I get it

what's been eating at me for so long. It's the feeling that the future doesn't seem to hold much prospect. Nothing outstanding, nothing exciting, but low paid, unintelligent monotomy and I know I've brought it upon myself. My thinking then goes to how when everything gets better when the whole relationship with God thing is going well. And that's exactly it, I feel so many of my friends have got themselves figured out without God and my arm is being bent behind my back, being forced to submit to something that I don't want to do if I want to any chance at happiness.

Thursday, 3 December 2009

went well

nuff said at the moment.