The bassline I aspire to nail

SP3

Just installed Windows XP SP3 on my pc and it loads windows slower than it did before.
Am yet to see the point of it all really.

The number 2 response?

"Sorry, we were unable to deliver your message to the following address"

"Remote host said: 554 delivery error: dd This user doesn't have a yahoo.ie account"

*sigh*

Not exactly what I was expecting, what do I do? Try and track this person down or just leave it?

Works in a congregation? Yay or Nay?

	David Crowder Band - Only You
	Found at skreemr.com

I especially like the bit at about 02:44.

Number 2

Just contacted the second person on my list.

I wasn't really sure what to say but I'm glad I did it.
I'm almost expecting a pretty fiery response or nothing at all.
Time will tell if it was really stupid or not.

Got a response from the first person and that was really great, finally a bit of closure.
However, they were on msn the other day, we started talking and I pretty much managed to not only put my foot in my mouth but pretty much swallow my knee. Smoothly done. Go me.

Still trying to work out whether I should apologise again or just cut my losses and save myself any further cringe worthy moments.

Hehe

How to download stuff from youtube

Download Free download Manager, this is a great little program for downloading stuff giving you the option to resume downloads, deal with bit torrents and flash videos (youtube videos).

After you've installed it, copy the link location of the youtube video you want (which should look like this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwUhK9i-c_o ... well actually, when I copied it from youtube it looked like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZwUhK9i-c_o&feature=dir, you need to delete anything from the '&' onwards, I've highlighted the bit you don't want.

Open FDM and click on the 'add download' blue plus button (see pic)

The URL should be automatically pasted in, but incase it isn't, paste it in the top URL box.

Then check the file is going to be saved in the right location.

The click 'OK' (see pic)


File downloaded, wooo!

Now, how the heck are you going to play it? You might have noticed you are able to play the video and ALSO convert it to other video formats (only just discovered that function a second ago). If you don't want to convert it but want to play it full screen, I recommend Video LAN aka VLC Media Player, not only does it play youtube videos full screen, but it can also play multi regional dvd and pretty much ANY file format you throw at it.

Job done.

Discovered a gem

About 5 years ago I bought a drum and bass album with a track called 'So Tinha de Ser Com Voce', not only have I rediscovered this gem of a track, but I'm found a translated version.
Perfect.



No one can say how much love I have saved
Unaware it was all meant for you

You, it had to be with only you
It had to be for only you
Or else it would lead to more pain
My heart would retreat yet again
A love that's beyond the whole world
This love that I've come here to bring
A love like you've never seen
This love that I've come here to bring
A love like you...

You, your beauty was born out of blue
Please let me come close to this blue
Won't you let me search for my peace
By bringing your heart in my reach
If only you knew, as I do
That I have been yours all along
And that you were mine all along
That I have been yours all along
And that you were mine all along

The non list list

I decided that there was a conversation I needed to have today.
I thought and rethought what I was going to say during the service today and when I got my moment, I almost bottled it but then forced myself to act.
I did it, said what I wanted to say (not quite so eloquently as in my practices) but I did it none the less.

Even got a text saying "I'm so impressed you said those things to my face- you have alot more guts than most..."

I didn't quite bank on the things I would find out in that conversation tho. It's kinda knocked me for six and put a complete downer on the day.

Didn't think it was going to be easy. I would have preferred being wrong, this weight on my chest hurts.

On a slightly related note, I asked if I could have another bash at leading worship. It's something I've pondered alot in recent months so it's good that I've actually decided to act on it.

Update:

I feel I need to add to this post.

As I said, some of the stuff I was told in the conversation put a bit of a downer on the day. I've gotta say, that's a half truth, I've been really annoyed all afternoon.

You see, the only reason I had to have this conversation was because I had to try and fix the situation that had been caused by someone else. (Funnily enough, when I first got a message saying something was up, I thought "I bet I know why they've spoken to, this seems like the sort of thing this person would do or say." I told Pete about this but then ended up rebuking myself for thinking like that. I thought "I'm just being cynical, I have nothing to base this on", unfortunately, turns out I was spot on right.) I'm pissed off that this person felt they had explain to this to my friend my thoughts on a certain subject, I'm angry that they would think they know me so well that it would be ok to say those sorts of things, even though I hadn't even discussed anything with this outside person so it seems they came to their conclusions on their own using their brilliance and wisdom. It's caused me alot of grief this week and made for an uncomfortable afternoon on saturday which should have been a great time to spend with friends.

Now I'm not really sure what to do. On one hand, I feel I should confront this person and tell them to mind their own business. On the other hand, I feel I should take a step back, try and chill myself out and just move on.

Either way, the fall out is the friendship I'd had last week is now tainted by stupid assumptions and I'm bitter because of that. Maybe I should give it time, maybe I should face up to the fact it's gonna take me a few days to cool off (but that's hard when a friend is now suspicious of your motives)...I dunno.

Another person was added to the non list list today. I didn't quite plan on it, but I got a call from a friend asking if they could come round and an old friend that I'd been hurt alot by was with him. I said they were welcome and spent the time before they arrived and trying to chill out and ask God for words. When they arrived I greeted him warmly and it felt sincerely. I'm going to have to have a chat with him sometime to sort out the old issues, but I feel it's time to do something. I can do this. As with the other people on the list, it's probably going to hurt, but I can do it. In saying that, I've decided I shouldn't rush through this list. It's a painful thing to do and it's not a race, I feel for the sake of my heart and personal well-being I'll take it slow, in my own pace (or God's, which ever comes first.)

(I feel in the process of not name dropping, sometimes I write things that don't make any sense.)

"I'll internalise my response"

Basically means "I'll think about it briefly and then not really draw any conclusions I feel are worth sharing."

Sounds good though!

Moving on

I was selling newspapers the other day, it's a job I have done before and I've realised the key to selling lots and making the time fly by is thinking happy thoughts. Anything that makes you smile will do, and for me, I was running and rerunning a conversation I had a with a friend over and over in my head. The conversation goes somewhere along the lines of:

"I've decided, one day I want to come into Tescos after drinking a bottle of red food colouring and 2 litres of milk, I'll do my normal shop until I can take it no longer and explosively vomit it everywhere."

and which point my friend laughs her arse off and agrees to film it.

As I preach the good news of "Half price Evening News! Only 20 pence today!" and hand out another copy to a customer, I can't help but picture the scene of pinky red milk cascading everywhere. I think to myself that 2 litres is alot of milk and wonder if I'll be able to stop myself from laughing.

It was a good day and sold lots and I was in a good mood.

Before I finished for the day, my housemate came into buy some things and he asked me if I would be up for helping out at his youth club and I said yes. It's been 3 years this summer since I did any youthwork but I was surprisingly up for it. I felt I could do it. I haven't felt that in a long time.

The evening cruised by, only a couple of injuries in a not quite to safe game we were playing. My brother called me up and asked if I wanted to hang out as he was in town. Now, while I was very much up for it, I can't really remember the last time I spent some time with my brother and wonder if I ever have gone out with him alone. (Silly for a 23 year old huh?).

As I was cycling up, I had a sense of "I can do this!". Not just going to the cinema, but the things I have been putting off all year. My list.

At the start of the year (...or maybe it was last year) I wrote a mental list of people I needed to apologise to, the tricky bit is none of these people talk to me so to make the first move was big thing. But when i got home, I did it. I contacted my ex girlfriend (of 5 years ago) and after making it quite clear I was neither drunk or trying to be creepy and got on with things I could have done ages ago. Firstly congratulating her on her marriage. Apologising for the silly things I'd done...like ordering her a sex guide on her amazon account 6 months into her relationship with the guy he got with after me and then went on to marry. (I still think it was kinda funny but gave her an amazon voucher to make up for it.) I wished her well and shared a few things from a conversation I'd had about her, all nice stuff I might add and then went to bed.

I felt relieved to have finally said the things I'd been wanting to say for ages and when I got her response, I felt closure and it was good.

So, one down, quite a few more to go, but I'm actually really proud of me, I almost wish I could say this to someone else as if there were me (if that makes sense). I would probably give them a hug, tell them it was good thing they did and maybe give them a bit of space if they wanted to vent or have a bit of a cry. Yeah, that would be good.

Dave, it's good that you've made a start on tackling these things that have caused you so much grief all this time. You can do this, keep going. You'll be a better man for it I promise.

The Proud Father

My nephew Joseph Raphael Garcia was born on Thursday May 1st weighing 6 lbs 3 oz after a 5 hour induced labour. (Laura and Joseph are currently back in hospital as he wasn't feeding properly, Pete, my brother, was apparently quite distressed to see Joseph being fed with a pipe up his nose, prayers much appreciated.) (Since I started writing this on Wednesday, the Garcia family have just arrived home. Turns out as well as not feeding, Joseph had high sodium levels. If you could pray about it I would be forever in your debt.)

Pete, wells with pride. When I spoke to him the other day I couldn't get over how much tired happiness was in his voice. He's is SO proud of his Son, and he's a "father who loves to parade him" and show him off. The thing is about Joe (I think start calling him Joe as that's what Pete and Laura call him), he hasn't actually done anything! Apart from causing

I would have to say, Joe's life accomplishments have been pretty uneventful thus far, but that is exactly what excites me.

Maybe I'm going over old ground again here, but I can't help but wonder what God thinks of me and reassure myself that he is indeed very proud, not because I have do anything, but just because I am his Son.

For Pete, he knows exactly what it's going to be like. In Joe's life, he is going to give Pete and Laura an immense amount of joy through just being. He'll cause them to worry, he'll give them late nights, he'll surprise them and hopefully in ways, teach them. He will also, being human by his very nature, defy them and maybe cause them much heart ache.

But I know this to be true when I say, with foreknowledge of what it may be like, Pete and Laura love Joe. I which when you read the word "love" in the last sentence you were actually stuck with the power of that word and the emotion behind it.

Again, all this makes me think of God and what he thinks of me. Good stuff.
























Is it normal for babies only a week and half old to be so smiley?

Maybe he was just glad to be going home.

:)