"it commands a response"

What have you done yet?

It's ok, I don't really have a fine answer either.

March 26th

My mum was 60 on the 26th and I find it really weird.

My initial thought, however morbit, is that if she lives to the same age as her mum, I've only got another 22 years knowing her. This also means, any children I have won't have much time with her. Weird thought.

Secondly, I wonder what the rest of her years will be like (I can't help but smile writting this because it is kinda silly). For my mum, I can't help but feel she should be else where. She met my biological father while being a missionary in Ecuador, she got married and I can't help but feel its been kinda downhill since then. She used to be a christian band, she used to ride a motorbike (which wasn't really thought of so highly when she was a twenty something), she stripped and reprogrammed our washing machine to add more functions, she used to work on the royal farm and is known to say things like "if I could have my time again, I would go and dig wells in africa". She likes scarcastic humour and love to talk about the bible, (why I just paired those two I have no idea). From 1991 (I've never but a date on it until now...) she raised 4 sons and... hmmm.

Never thought about that.

I was going to say how we're all grown up now and that there is nothing keeping her here. That I felt she should go back to Ecuador or some other mission field, but that date has (I was going to say "kinda" but I realise I have typed it far too many times already) caught me off guard...I didn't realise how long it had been since Jorge left.

She has been alone for so long (which is part of the reason I'm still at her house rather than going home. She's at work right now, but I feel bad knowing she'll come home to the empty house that used to ring with young boys running around. In saying that, I have to be in the city for 5:30pm to meet friends and I'm always late and I know she won't be back til about 6pm. I think I'll tidy up and leave her a meal out or something...that'll ease my conscience.), maybe upping and leaving to do something else wouldn't be helpful at all. Maybe consistency is what is needed.

We went out for her birthday with 7 of her friends from church and I felt really encouraged by the gifts they gave her. To me, they just seemed to say that they knew my mum really well and I take alot of comfort from that. I moved out when I was 22, not because I didn't want to move out sooner, it was more because I knew she would be alone. It's good to know she has friends around her that understand her, just like I love the fact my friends understand me.

I think I'll leave it there.

:)

I'm quite pleased with myself that I've managed to embed the myspace music player into my blog template. It's quite simple really:

First get the web address of the music player, this is done using Adblock.
Click on the 'block' tab. Another window will then pop up, select and copy the address given.



Go here and paste "http://lads.myspace.com" where it says "Servername"
and the rest of the website address e.g "/music/musicplayer.swf?n=aHR" etc where it says "File Path" the click 'submit'. Copy the code that has been generated.

Click on the 'layout' tab of your blogger account.
Click on 'HTML/JavaScript'.

In the title write something like 'Music Player'
Paste the code in and click 'Save changes'

Done.

I'm trying to work out how to make it show a different artist every time you refresh the page, that may take a while tho.

The post easter sunday lunch post, the post post some may say...no, lets be honest, they wouldn't

So, I've just been watching the bbc version of The Passion and while I didn't really think much of it during my inital viewing earlier this week, I couldn't help but get choaked up watching it this afternoon.
At church this morning we did a song called See His Love by Tom Tom Lockley (or just Tom to his mother), [edit: actually check this one out] we had a choir singing with the band and did it in a sort of funk(ish) style (well, that's how it sounded in the practice anyway). The choir was amazing and really made the song, however, as much as I enjoyed the song, I couldn't help but feel the music, whatever style the song was played, was completely inadequate.

The chorus goes:

This is Jesus in His glory
King of Heaven dying for me
It is finished, He has done it
Death is beaten, Heaven beckons me

I think if you have a look at the link for the song you might know what I mean. It commands a response, "why do we celebrate Easter?" (Ian Savory this morning) because it commands a response.

As yet, my response has only been to gasp for my breath, to (when in the company of others) cough to cover up my involuntary vocal reaction to seeing a beaten man with a torn open back hanging nailed to a tree. It's big stuff and I say it again, it commands a response.

[Edit: And if I (you) need any further encouragement,



" If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And the heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way he loves Us all."

grit teeth, clench fist

ugh...

I'm trying to chill out, but I can't.

I can't stand it how when I get angry about something I behave in such an odd way. I want to scream til it starts to hurt. I want to break things and I good cry wouldn't go a miss either.

However, I'm with friends celebrating a birthday and I just have a face like a slapped arse.

On a slightly unrelated note, my forgetfulness has gone past funny to being quite worrying. I saw a friend last night and said "cool, it's great to see you! We haven't hung out in ages!"
"Yeah we have, we went swimming last thursday"
"hmmm, no we didn't"
"yeah, Dave, we did. We went back to yours and ate nachos with melted cheese and chillies then you cooked for us."
"Ok, stop it, not funny"
"no Dave, seriously- we did!"
"oh...."

I can quite easily see me in my late 30s with Alzheimer's, no joke, I can see it happening.

and while I'm on the subject of Geek

YAY!!

Oh my gosh, forget youtube!

Check out the awesome functions of this video player! Comments and EVERYTHING!
Also, this lady is kinda funny...

The most awesome youtube comment

I was just watching New Song Cafe on youtube, it's basically a show that shows how to play worship songs. I've found it rather helpful at times (interestingly enough, the song I was watching about 'Yesterday today and forever' by Vicky Beeching showed a different way of playing it with standard tuning. Don't seem to be able to get it tho) and I like it how they get the people who wrote the songs to teach them (David Crowder is awful! He always seems like he has just woken up and doesn't really know what he is playing). Anyway, after watching the video I continued browsing and stumbled upon the actual recording of the song



and found this comment:

"i love this song this song is sO TOUCHING thank you for posting it on youtube GOD BLESS YOU and this song reminds me of one of my fravoite pastor"

I dunno, it just made me giggle.

I don't have the gift of Celibacy...damit

My friend and I were talking about spiritual gifts the other day and I suggested she check out the network course. In saying that, I do have reservations about the network course. It's just all those boxes you have to tick and then the fiddling afterwards only to find out you're an ISFJ when actually you really feel you're a ENTP (bonus points to people who got that).

So anyway, I found this online version which (based on a quick comparison) I decided was a rip off of the network course. Nuff' said, here are my results. I have to admit, I'm not sure what to think. On one hang I'm not surprised at all, the top three or four seem to make sense. However, comparing that to prophecies that have been spoken over to me, it's almost contradictory...or at least my initial thoughts think it is.

HOWEVER

I think it's good to keep in mind a questionaire is a questionaire and words from from God are exactly that.

linky link

Steve Taylor - The Godfather of cool Christian music

LYRICS:

I'd gone through so much other stuff
that walking down the aisle was tough
but now I know it's not enough
I want to be a clone

I asked the Lord into my heart
they said that was the way to start
but now you've got to play the part
I want to be a clone

chorus:
Be a clone and kiss conviction goodnight
cloneliness is next to Godliness, right?
I'm grateful that they show the way
'cause I could never know the way
to serve him on my own
I want to be a clone

They told me that I'd fall away
unless I followed what they say
who needs the Bible anyway?
I want to be a clone

Their language it was new to me
but Christianese got through to me
now I can speak it fluently
I want to be a clone

Be a clone and kiss conviction goodnight
cloneliness is next to Godliness, right?
I'm grateful that they show the way
'cause I could never know the way
to serve him on my own
I want to be a clone

Ah, I kind of wanted to tell my friends and people about it, you know
What?
You're still a babe
you have to grow
give it twenty years or so
'cause if you want to be one of his
got to act like one of us

Be a clone and kiss conviction goodnight
cloneliness is next to Godliness, right?
I'm grateful that they show the way
'cause I could never know the way
to serve him on my own
I want to be a clone

So now I see the whole design
my church is an assembly line
the parts are there
I'm feeling fine
I want to be a clone

I've learned enough to stay afloat
but not so much I rock the boat
I'm glad they shoved it down my throat
I want to be a clone

Everybody must get cloned!

My google is better than yours

I use firefox with:

Google preview - For the site preview icons
Customise Google - For getting rid of google ads, links to other search engine results and site history (web archive)
Googlepedia - For integrating wikipedia in with my results
Google Autopager - For making my search results appear as one continuous page.
Search youtube from google - I have an extra button that searches youtube.

The faceless internet

Have you noticed now people are more likely to make mean comments to other people on the internet? I've mostly noticed it on forums and message boards and I don't really find it surprising, I mean, the internet is full of people who like rubbing their own opinion and 'greater knowledge' in people's faces. But have you ever read some of the comments on the Network Norwich website!?
You would have thought people would conduct themselves a bit better but there we go.

Reading various comments around the site I can't help but think the majority are written by the older generation who have just discovered the internet and are hiding behind the fact they can not give away their identity.

I wonder if people would think a bit better about what they wrote if they had to give their actual names and have a profile picture?

ps

Thought it would be quite fitting I upload a profile picture.